Change

As the months go by and it becomes closer to June, I have really come to realize what a sad summer it is going to be for me and my family. Lauren and Derek and Titan will be clear in Georgia and it breaks my heart to think what it's going to be like for Lauren to be without Derek for such a long period of time because that feeling is still all too fresh for me.. She is a lot stronger than I am though and I know she'll do just fine. She will also be a better ARMY wife than I am cause unlike her, I like to complain about all the stupidity that comes along with the army. But, she has yet to experience it :) I just hope they have a better experience then Garrett and I have had so far. I will miss them! Jordan will be in Pennsylvania until the end of the summer and will then be heading to Texas Tech in Lubbock for the fall. So at least him and I won't be too far apart :)  Colin will be here in El Paso working and living with friends. My parents will be in El Paso until the end of the summer and then they will be relocating to their new home. And that leaves me, Sawyer and Bentley. We will be heading to Fort Hood, TX on June 3rd. I must say that a part of me is excited to finally have a place to live after being at my parents for the better part of a year but the other(bigger) part of me is really scared and sad. 

As I think back on all the things that have happened in the past year and all the changes that we have all gone through, I can't help but always see my parents come in my mind while thinking about everything. They have been there with me by my side since the very beginning. I can still remember the day that I had to say goodbye to Garrett when he was leaving for basic training. My parents picked me up when it was time to leave and I just cried the whole way home and I was so thankful that I had them there to talk to me and comfort me and let me know that everything would be just fine. They were there when we went to see Garrett graduate from Basic Training. They took me on an awesome vacation of the South on our way there. They were there for me when I was pregnant and without Garrett. They were there ready to take me to the hospital the day Sawyer was born. They were there when I broke down and cried when I was told the sad news that Garrett would have to get deployed just two months after Sawyer was born. And they are still here now, ready to help me move and get situated in my new home. I've been so lucky and so blessed to have them with me through all that has happened recently. I don't think I could've done it without them. They are amazing parents and I couldn't have been sent to a more loving and caring family. 

I am going to miss being able to go anywhere and everywhere with one of my best friends, my mom. I'm going to miss having family dinner with my mom and dad and Lauren and Derek and Titan. I'm going to miss being able to hang out with all of them on the weekends and watch movies together and eat good food and laugh and cry. I'm going to miss living just five minutes from Lauren and Derek and having them come over and hang out with me on Friday nights when I'm home alone and feeling lonely. I'm going to miss yelling from upstairs "Mom! Come see what Sawyer just did!" or "Mom! Come hear Sawyer laugh!" I'm going to miss the comfort of my family. They mean the world to me and I'm scared to be away from them. I know that these changes at this time in our lives are all much needed ones but I just hate to see it come so soon. I want everyone in my family to know how much I love and appreciate them. They have all been a huge help to me and Sawyer and I can't thank them enough. 

I'm excited to start my new future with my little family in Fort Hood, TX. We will be moving June 3rd and will be waiting for Garrett to come home to visit in September for two weeks and then join us again for good at the end of November. Thank you to all of you in El Paso who have helped me and Sawyer while Garrett has been away. :) I will miss you guys too! Keep in touch everyone! :)